I have all these feelings but I don't know what to call them.

For three days, I was with someone whom I spent my whole time with. I slept knowing that he was there, I woke up knowing that he'll be by my side. It was calming. There were moments of frustration but they never lasted long. But those days ended and we're back to the reality of being apart.

Yesterday I was puking my guts out and having the worst series of diarrhea. It was so bad that I felt that I could have died. Then I thought of how I didn't tell those how much I really loved them.

Today it feels strange. Never thought i'd reach here but I miss someone so much that all I want to do is spend my time with that one person.

I need to get a grip I guess.