Saturday afternoon

Let us enjoy what peace we have in our hearts & what joy we have left.

Clear intent

1. So I went to see my optician today (finally) and my eyes are alright! That means, i'm safe to wear my corrective lens again and i'd no longer be semi-blind after tonight! Hooray!

2. Been craving for molten cheese naan for the past few nights and didn't get one at Ameem yesterday since pizza at Sapore Italliano was surprisingly filling. Perhaps laughing about and finding the Hug Me coke machine contributed to this 'full' feeling. Anyway, I make my own cheese naan with garlic herb sausage today!

3. There's a test next week, 2 more tests the week after and my whole singapore studies project dued that week. Kinda crazy but oh well, it's the university life isn't it? At least as a pharmacy student. On a lighter note, I went down to Fairfield methodist church with my dad today to ask for permission to film and i'd be going down on tuesday to do so.

friday

This morning I woke up shuddering. I dreamt that I was to marry someone I didn't know and whose face i've never seen. Really strange dream (I didn't get to see his face and I wasn't told that I was to marry since I found out about this arrange marriage through an accidental eavesdrop). Thankfully my parents are far from such, they would never arrange a marriage for me and know my heart knows best.

Anyway today ended happy. Simple joys.

there was a Hug me coke machine at Arts today but we couldn't find it. What a pity.

suddenly traveling to-back from school seems very tiring

toil

People, tired. Avoid disgust, I wonder. Love failed, men, man, failed. It takes a toil on many things. Hypocrisy, contradiction between accepting and unforgiveness. Mistakes on impulse; implications, pray they not be. You're begging, I begged. Caring doesn't feel the same anymore, absence. Words that hit on the surface and doesn't seep in, barely touching a nerve. A warm hug but I feel the cold from the aircon instead. Something once treasured and sacred, reduced to ranks similar to commodities. I question myself why I even do this. I hate my actions, i'm ashamed. Now these take toil on me. URGH

oh screw it.

It's gonna be 4 am and im still awake, whooots. been awake for more than 24 hours?