I find no reason for destruction yet no motivation to hold on. The emotional attachment is probably what that makes me hold on. Disturbed, I recall the flaws and then the knot loosens a little and I feel better. It seems as if the attachment weighs me down with the baggage. Yet, how is it so that I am aware of this but I can't seem to let it go and turn cold to it.
I'd really love to take a break from it all, because right now it's hurting and I know that departure would be eventual.