It doesn't feel right at all.

because i'm afraid

that one day, you'd wake up and emotions are different. we don't feel the same way anymore.
volatile.

we're all baking

Cheers for the Weekend

This is was insane with 4 crazy papers.
Pretty good adopting the no-use-looking-back-or-being-sad attitude.
Anyway, today I came home to be a sloth, watch Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (which was really good) & start on my book of greek fiction.

One more paper leftttt

Perhaps, just maybe, perhaps.

That one day i'd love someone and he'll love me back.
I'm quite tired of lies and lying.

anyway, back to studying. got to keep what's positive in me because i'm quite going downhill.

ooh mannn

Think it'll take me some time to get used to this new blogger post setup.

Anyway, I stayed at home this whole study week since I fell really ill and nearly coughed my lungs out. Irritated because my whole study plan was screwed and I haven't even finished reading half the notes for my core modules once through. It feels terribly depressing to wake up from dozing off and realizing how it's a whole new day. Feeling very much in hot soup and I don't know how am I gonna complete everything.

Today I woke up without that feeling anymore, perhaps it's temporal, but sorry, I don't feel the same way anymore.

let your heart soak it up

DO NOT FALL ILL PLEASE BODY PLEASE.

never endinggggg

The Great Lethargy

I don't even know where to start.

Coachella

on the last day

Whoaaa, like imma still on my paper. Caught China got talent, figured out how to use some cool-ass scanner and skipped school today. Wasn't hungry the whole day and now, at 12.55am, I wanna eat some cereal.

STILL ON MY PAPER, DAFAQ?

I need a hug most now.

Crazy

This week is probably one of the craziest week of this semester yet. The craziest would be exam week of course. Two tests and a huge ass project to complete. The start of the week saw myself loathing the start of this crazy series. Today, I finished the last of these 2 tests. I don't have much assurance of the papers especially for the one today, where my curiously led me to the discovery of the many wrongs I had made in the paper. Over is over.

Lunch at Pepperoni and a coffee at Starbucks might have given me this little calm I have now. As I start on the last segment of my project, my paper, I pray smooth sailing.

I'm scared for my papers again, I don't want to plummet down anymore because I can't afford to. Give me comfort.

It's scary how there was so much assurance and comfort yesterday, but today's all about uncertainty.

Hands

When you hold someone's hand, it's more than a mere gesture or aesthetic appearance. It's a moment when you intertwine your hands and life with someone else's and perhaps, just for a moment, you know that you're not alone.

So I give your hand a tight squeeze. It's not for the extra assurance but because I don't ever want you to leave.

Life on thursday

Spent a few hours setting up and filming extras. Am spending a longer time typing my script. I should start studying Pharm Prac and Micro.b soon. The unpleasantness of overcrowding of work.

Day in pictures

Sleep curtailing

The fragility of hands laced with green blue lines that run across. Skin clings on tight to bone beneath, wrapping around. Skin and bone move in sync with each flex, with each bend. Fingers, harden from work, now don't feel the texture each surface brings.

i'm so sleepy and tired. i've been sleeping, dozing more like it, as early as 8plus every night. god bless me.

Got to

em·brace    [em-breys] noun, verb (used with object)

1. to take or clasp in the arms; press to the bosom; hug.
2. to take or receive gladly or eagerly; accept willingly: to embrace an idea.
3. to avail oneself of: to embrace an opportunity.
4. to adopt (a profession, a religion, etc.): to embrace Buddhism.
5. to take in with the eye or the mind.