got to stick to being happy

So vulnerable, so scared.

Neither smart nor pretty, ):

Accepting is one thing, but living with it is another. You can accept what has happened and then move on knowing that you wouldn't have to come across it anymore. That's probably the best way or thing about moving on: you don't have to be reminded of it ever again. I mean, of course, you'll get reminded of the hurt here and there but it doesn't sting that badly since you'll know that it's over.

Cause I hope everything will be alright

taking my heart to lock it up in a box because people like you lie too much and made the currency of words so low.

If you'd love me you'd stay and be honest, it may not be that simple but it's that straightforward.
I'm tired of thinking, over thinking, expecting, reminiscing, so hopefully I can stay with this "what-i-see-and-hear-is-all-that's-happening".

I don't know what's going on, what will happen or what had happened. rawr, okay.study.now.

You don't know what to follow anymore because you don't know what's genuine.
Tonight I feel sick and like a balloon.

What are we to do now

Would everything be alright if they could be? I find myself waking up, stomach all queasy, from a bad dream and then it hits me that it could actually be possible. And now, i'm scared.
Pathetic. This makes me sick.
Perhaps one day, this person or someone could make me feel safe. And I could control this wandering mind.