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Your body's probably pressing against hers. Your breath in her air as she pulls you in closer.
So cut me out, cut me all out because you're the biggest hypocrite and the worst kind of lover. You deserve a kind like her, lust, be of stereotypical young & wild, to sink in the idea that melancholy and depression is reality and puts power in you.
Leave. And don't come back because i'm leaving. I've got to stop lying because my lies became too real that I started to live in them. I don't love you, I never did love consistently, I hated and got disgusted with you so many times. You were one of the worst chores/burden. I can say this now because there're no more ties that hold us together. Because I finally stopped being lazy and cut the strings that tied.

I wish I held more strongly to my beliefs and focus better. I can't wait for my exams to be all overrrr! So much joy awaits!

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and let me out, go be 'free' with all the other girls, drugs, alcohol but don't come back, don't make your words look so flowery and try to hit a raw spot of mine. Go, be a human at least, i'm not gonna carry your weight. Not, anymore.

Memories

Memories, there were happy ones that make me smile as I think of them and a little sad that they cannot be of present. Yes, so there were memories, happy ones.

Porgress

people, person- trash. mistakes, stupid, didn't seem then, so alarming now. over, they are, haunts on. over. over. past. now, past tense. move on, moved, moving, stuck, moving, got on. progress.

All in my head

I should have known it wouldn't work out especially when I was doubting the things I said and when I kept considering leaving. I was afraid that no one could possibly love me more and I hated change. So I let myself live in denial and get carried away by the cheapest interpretations of words and things and let my mind wander to the point I was probably trying to interpret only the positive. So I got tired, really tired because it wasn't how I wanted it anyway and I hated it so badly. Now that's said, I feel pretty alright to be correct.